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One Last SongThey didn't see the signs.
They should've read between the lines.
Her lifestyle they scorned,
and for this reason, they mourned...
She suffered in silence.
Her sorrow, a cadence.
With her life they had gambled,
but with her world in shambles,
they had gone all-in and lost.
They should've known the cost...
In front of the grave, a boy thought of the girl he'd forsaken.
He wished this was a nightmare from which he'd awaken.
He was her high-school sweetheart,
but they had drifted apart.
Once he had left her alone,
the suicidal thoughts found a home...
On her guitar, sad notes she played,
whilst overhead, a noose had swayed.
From quivering lips, she sang one last time.
Shutting out a million thoughts, she managed a rhyme...
"Mother, father, I have a confession...
This song shall never be completed,
for I battled with depression,
and depression succeeded..."
MistakeIf only I had known that
This is what we'd become.
If I could go back,
Change what I've done.
You should know that I would.
Just look at what I've done now.
Everything is so broken.
If only I just know how,
Take back what I've spoken,
I would if I could.
But now it's too late,
The damage is done.
I took all the hate.
I want to go back to one.
Do I have to go away
Just because of one mistake?
Why couldn't it stay?
Was so much at stake?
I'm tired of pretending
There's no use of it now.
Is this really the ending?
Guess I regret it somehow.
Don't we all stumble?
Don't we all feel small?
Don't we all have trouble feeling humble?
Don't we all trip and fall?
But I don't understand
Why this thing has to be.
All that I know is the blame is on me.
Just a Taste.I knew what would happen.
That's why I slammed every locked door wide open for just one single night with you,
let my lips crash into yours, tasting you like fine wine, getting intoxicated off your texture.
I dared to sink into the pool of warmth you made, limbs desperate to touch, to brush,
your eyes eating me alive, tearing me apart, my freshly tainted lips confessing my desire,
while yours strung out fogs of smoke, hinting that this, too, was merely a guilty illusion.
Just a kiss, just a moment, just a memory relived a thousand times.
But I knew what would happen.
That's why I didn't push you to finish the sentences that you dropped, forgot unexpectedly,
why I didn't clutch you to my chest, whisper a coo in your waiting ear, dream of tomorrow.
My mind knew before my heart could accept that strange gaze that struck your coffee circles,
The past memories I choked up, that old flavor resurfacing when I finally put it all together,
But still I bathed in the emotion, luxuri
The Boy in the CornerHe curls in the corner of the lit-up room,
watching from the shadows
The women, they laugh, with pearls 'round their necks,
And men in fine suits sip from delicate glasses
Golden chandeliers hang from the ceiling
as society's elite mingle seamlessly
And the boy-
his face is unwashed, his hair unkempt,
but he watches, and he learns
and he sees
So he makes a vow:
Never be like them, the ones within the light,
the ones walking past his corner without a glance,
the ones laughing their polite, gilded laughs,
the ignorant, the ones never knowing
what it was to reside within darkened corners
That vow is kept:
the rest of his days is spent in the darkness,
lonely, bitter, not knowing what it was
to live within the light-
but he is never like them,
and that is consolation in itself
I Love HerYou say this is wrong,
the work of the devil,
I never knew love,
could cost me forever.
It's not my fault,
I didn't ask for this,
I didn't ask to get caught,
caught up in her kiss.
It's not just a faze,
I've always felt this,
the need not for a prince,
but for a princess.
But you say it's impossible,
for me to feel this way,
I have to fight it, I have to battle.
But why is it that you; mom and dad,
your love is seen as pure,
but as for mine, it's seen as a sin,
just because it's with a girl.
You always taught me not to judge,
so why are you being so judgmental,
you sin too, you have your faults,
so why am I the one on trial?
God wont leave me because I love,
He knows it's not my fault,
so mom and dad do as you wish,
I'll love her if I want.
Watch me as I fall once again.
Watch me lose my mind to nothing.
Tell me I'm worthless
Tell me you don't care
Listen to my cry of pain
You don't care
I don't care
Watch me bleed.
These cuts can't go deep enough
The blade isn't sharp enough
Watch me bleed.
Close your eyes
Open your eyes
I am gone
Search for me
I am lost
Take away this pain.
Tell me I will be okay.
This broken mind is tearing itself apart
Leaving me in a pool of blood
I want to die.
So once again
LostI'm Lost in a world, that keeps pulling me down,
Lost in a crowd, that keeps pushing me around.
Lost in a park, where lonesome strangers walk,
I need to get away, but I don't think I can.
Lost in this life, can't find my way.
Lost without anything to do, almost every day.
Lost in worry, who am I?
All my life, I've lived like this.
Lost in your kindness, lost in your eyes,
Lost in your sky, where a new-born dove flies.
Lost in your storms, and I can't get out,
It tosses me around, so I look for a new route.
Lost to warmth, all wrapped up tight,
Lost to reason, that's why I fight.
Lost with those who were already lost,
all these people, trying to find their way no matter the cost.
Lost from myself, I can't seem to find the true me,
Lost in troubles, which road to take?
Lost in a valley with hundreds of foes,
Where am I? No one knows.
Lost here, all alone,
Lost inside this place screaming.
Lost in a room, with no doors.
I'm fighting alone, to break these walls.
Safe and Sound
I have killed this ability to shed tears
So I am crying deep down inside of my very being
The lyrics to this song give me goosebumps
And here I sit alone in this empty room
Thinking of you and how very far away from me you are
Not just in distance but in beauty and fame
I would stop the world for just a day with you
To see you smile and to hear your laugh
To get to know you
What makes you happy, what makes you sad
What's your earliest memory love?
The whole wide world wants you
How can I scream loud enough for you to notice me?
Perhaps these words will reach you somehow
I will close my eyes and hope for you someday
And know that you are safe and sound.
Nervous MovementYou're a dime a dozen in a sea of billions.
Individuality has no significance in numbers so vast.
And while this fact makes looking forward hard
we can't keep living in the past.
You're a nervous movement in a freeze frame scene.
Steady hands won't help hold up such a fragile act.
And while you take your time keeping character
you fake what you can't take back.
With nothing more than a thought we form our actions
and this is where we extinguish the lie they tried to invent.
The lie that we painted our lives without passion
well conclusions are useless with no attempt to commence.
You're a song I can't name stuck in my head.
I've listened to you before and probably will again.
And while I can hum the melody all day long waiting
for it to hit me I still won't know where you've been.
You're a gust that has never changed direction.
Nothing can touch you you're only felt as you brush skin.
And while you can't be stopped nothing lasts
nothing escapes time not even the wind.
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